the stars in the sky shine on me?

The stars in the sky, are you shining on me?

I only pray and wish and pray and wish for this. If something else has to go because of this, then so be it. I'm scared, real scared, genuinely scared.

I try hard not to think about it, but when I do I go into a full blown panic attack. The panic, so blinding, I have to sit down and catch my breath before resuming whatever I was doing. The panic, so scary that I tremble when I walk. The panic, so overwhelming, that it gives me sleepless nights.

I promise I'll work real hard. I promise. I promise.

Grant me my promise?