haiyor..

I don't understand why I bother keeping a blog if I write nothing in my blog. It's kinda frustrating that I have to keep updating just for the sake of updating, so that my blog won't be dead. I hardly disclose any information about anything in my blog, and if I do it's usually in some form of undecodeble nonsense. So people who read my blog (if any) will usually find nothing useful out of it, except that I am a nonsensical person who writes weird things. I constantly find it hard to share my feelings with people, which is why I won't tell you anything. It is very frustrating to keep your feelings all bottled up inside of course, but I never really tell anyone everything because I don't fully trust anyone. Which is why, (you'll know who you are if you're reading this) I have told you that I have built walls, and I won't bring the walls down because you'd shoot me. And I don't want to be shot at again.

See, more of the undecodable nonsense. I think that's all I write about these days. You have no idea how much I think when I'm alone. I'm quiet for a reason when I'm not talking, you know. That's why I am usually so talkative. Because talking is a very effective distraction from thinking. And thinking is sometimes depressing.

If Happy Pills existed, I'mma eat one right now. Not because I'm sad, but because I want to be happy.